A Venting

I'm simply sitting. Just sitting and licking envelopes for a letter to go out.

Then, the text came. It was a text I thought I had waited so long for, but turned out to be one that I would always remember as a moment of sheer depression and sadness.

"I don't want to talk to you."

The words of Donkey from the movie Shrek come to mind: "You cut me deep Shrek, you cut me real deep just now." Except this wasn't a lovable, big green ogre. It was from someone I thought was a best friend, one I could turn to when I needed her. I guess the feeling wasn't as mutual as I had hoped.

What do you do in a situation like this? I responded "OK then", threw my phone against the wall and hoped I wouldn't hear the sound of my phone getting another text. My luck ran out today. I got another one, explaining why. Lets just say it didn't exactly meet my expectations of a explanation.

*ding* Just got another text. Pulled out the "I'm trying to do God's Will, so I'm not talking to you. What a self-confidence boost, God is telling people to stop talking to me (my sincere apologies to anyone who had to suffer through that). If you're ever tempted to do this, let me tell you the mature thing to do: tell the person that you're not talking to them BEFORE you start not talking to them. And try to explain it more than "You just wouldn't understand", cause you're right I don't understand. Throw me a bone here.

I guess this post is just me venting at the world. And girls, no offense I think.

I'm now going to finish my letters and go home and listen to some loud music and attempt to drown out the world.