Lately

So lately I've this ominous feeling over my head. I don't really know what it's all about, but it's there. There's been a lot of complicated stuff going on, including but not limited to: me being without my car, the car I was driving breaking, drama with several friends, and just not hanging out with anyone lately. The hanging out part is my fault, I've been out of town and having to take care of stuff at home.

I would say that my "friends" situation is weird. I have two very separate groups of friends: my "church" friends, and then the rest of my friends basically. I love both equally, but I feel like I hang out with one a lot more than the other and the other is now mad because of that. But is it entirely my fault? I don't really get invited to do stuff with them, so I don't really hang out with them. I don't really plan stuff, but I love just being there for the ride. I love just sitting around, even if we aren't doing anything, just because I love being with awesome friends. All of my friends are incredible.

Then there was the whole thing that my posts "From the Real to the Fake" and "A Venting" refer to. First off I'd like to say that that has been resolved-ish. The outcome wasn't what I wanted (or what I still want) but it's an acceptable compromise for now. Hopefully things will steadily get better and eventually to the way it was before, but that might just be wishful thinking on my part.

My parents are as heckling as ever. My mother just got home from a trip to her parents and I didn't even get a "How was your past couple days?". It was immediately what I needed to do around the house (even though the only reason there was something to do was because of a simple misunderstanding). My brother is grounded so he's all depressed and that doesn't exactly put me in the best mood.

On the upside I've been able to listen to a lot of good music lately, including Mayday Parade's "A Lesson In Romantics", John Mayer's "Where The Light Is - Live in Los Angeles", Relient K's "The Bird and the Bee Sides", and OneRepublic's "Dreaming Out Loud". All of this stuff is just incredible. I love music.